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Mr. & Mrs. A

They say the number 8 symbolizes eternity and in Chinese beliefs, it brings good luck as the chain is not broken and good things just go round and round. 

So, on December 18, 2008, I tied the knot with a very loving husband and yes, I’m a missus now.  I like it a lot because there’s this sense of completeness complemented with the knowledge that you have someone who is always there for you no matter what life may bring.  Plus, I’m so blessed to have found a man who is not only a good lover but also a good friend.  And I thank the Lord for the gift of him always.   Yep, marriage is a beginning of a new, colorful and fulfilling chapter in my life.  One that I am excited to explore every twist and turn and take delight in the    adventures of each day.

Then came the fateful day of January 28.  Though the sun was shinning high and mighty, my day was dark as the sky when a storm strikes… My heart was filled grief and the unbelief that it could happen to someone whom I love so dearly.  It was on that day when my father passed away due to massive cardiac arrest and it was an end I never thought to see this soon.   He was such a great man whose sincere service, pure love and firm faith nurtured our family and many others.  He has touched the lives of many and changed the hearts of others.  His patience extended like an elastic band that never breaks while his generosity and kindness was offered to friends and strangers alike.  So to you, Tatay,            

  I pay tribute and express my deepest gratitude for all that you have been to us and for everything you have done. You will always remain in my heart.

True enough, there’s always the beginning and the end.  That’s is why make the most of each day and every moment given to you.  Take joy in every beginnings while you prepare for every ending ‘coz life is a story of you and me. 

Been a long time since my last entry and so, it’s update time again…

Yup, a lot of changes took place in ‘my so called life’ and you’re in for a looong chika! Hehe But take note, I believe it is for the best after all.  And as usual, no specifics ( but the characters and the events are factual! haha)

To start with, 4 years put me in a spot where I thought I was so deep rooted it would be difficult to uproot or pluck myself out of it.  Plus, I felt stagnation was impending amidst the hustle and bustle of each day. Weird right?  And while developments around me unfold, the floor was littered with tears of frustrations, never likely to be achieved hopes and dreams, and many more trash! At the end of the day, love and true friends ( not to mention WACKY from the root word WACKO! Peace, Stoogies! It’s a compliment actually… Like exceptional, unusual! haha ) were my only consolation.

Yet, my faith kept me going and yes, GOD IS GOOD ( Reader: All the Time! - I just knew you’d say that! Hehe ).  But it’s not enough to say it, my friends, no matter how often.  You have to believe it!  Like the line in the movie we thoroughly enjoyed, ‘BELIEVE IN THE GOODNESS’.  When you do, only then, will it happen.

Deep? Yeah, tell me about it! You just have to know me in order to trust me that what I’m telling you is true. Dig it! LOL

So, now I bid friends and colleagues alike, not farewell, but until then…  And when we meet again, you will know me by my face and by the radiating beauty from within (Haha!).  The name and the place might change but my heart will unlikely alter- this is my brand!  If it does, I believe it is still rooted in goodness.

Oh let me say thank you so much for the many laughter and few tears (of joy still! ), for the lessons learned and experiences shared.  Thank you for blessings and goodness that you brought into my life.

These are all the many changes in my life.  Thanks be to God! Amen.

Hustle and bustle days are here again. Friends and
co-workers tell me that I am in a good position to pursue a great career path.
I do appreciate the opportunity that has come my way but still… There are
days when my doubts and fears get the better of me.  Plus the workload is
ever burgeoning and concerns from Luzvimin are left and right. Frustrations and disappointments (especially
on systems/policies) also make themselves known once in a while. Suffice to say, it is stressful most of the
time.  Good thing I have a very effective ‘stress reliever’ (literally and figuratively). Funny thing is I know that my ‘stress
reliever’ do gets stressed out with me releasing my negative vibes on him at
times. But he doesn’t complain. Instead he is so patient, supportive and very
understanding. Poor thing… I’m so blessed to have him.

 The going is tough when it comes to my career but I am happy
with my lot in love and it’s a happiness that far outweighs other aspects.  I also have to say that ‘though stressful, my
career is promising and very challenging. And so, I can safely claim I am ‘moving forward’… (right boss?)

        So whatever circumstance you’re in and whatever opportunity is in front of you now, try to move forward.  It’s the best way to go…

                                              
                                           moih,

                                  Syeril

April 9, 2006… My horoscope said "Don’t turn your back on the love that is right in front of you." I didn’t understand it at that time.  You see, I liked someone so much then.  To the point that I think I really fell for this guy and I know he fell for me too. I wasn’t imagining things I tell you! Believe me, I know for a fact… But the clincher, he is with someone else.  And it just CAN’T BE US.

P.S.
"We live and love the life and love we create…"

  "27 years of my life and still, I’m trying to get back that great big deal of hope… For my destination.  I realized quickly when I knew I should that the world was made up of this brotherhood of men… Or whatever that means."  Lines from the song What’s going on except that i changed the figure on the intro. 

    Ha! Most people don’t like to acknowledge the fact that they are getting older.  But me, I’ve accepted the way this world works.  And strangely, I’m happy… And almost excited to discover what the change in age might bring!  I didn’t expect to feel this way but somehow, I must have reconciled with the fact that I have to grow old in order to enjoy life more. 

    Yes, I’m turning 27 on the morrow and still counting.  And let me quote a friend of mine who opened up my eyes to look at things differently today.  He said, EVERY DAY IS BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE MORE BEAUTIFUL EVERY DAY!"   (thanks, dats, for this nugget of wisdom )   

    I always thought that loving is equivalent to living…  Not just simply loving your parents or friends but the kind of love that you have for someone special.  Someone you can lean on when the going gets tough… Someone you can depend on when the world almost turns its back on you. 

   Don’t you agree? Atta girls!

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    Writing is but one of my passions… Not to mention that it is my cup of tea right now.  It serves as my outlet for nagging thoughts, suppressed emotions, unconventional views and so much more.  Yet there comes a day when I am not in the mood to write.   Especially now that my requirements for scripts are piling up on my desk.  Whew! It’s hard to experience what they call the writer’s mental block.  But you see, I think it’s not actually that you cannot think of anything to write or you do not know how to go about your current article/project.  It’s just losing focus… the momentum… and maybe the inspiration. 

    As for this writer, she just needs some time to go about her scripts.  The nearer the deadline, the more intense is the flow of creative juices… These are the requirements for a really good script and believe me, satisfaction is guaranteed! hehehe Well, i’d like to believe that that is the case.

   Until then!

    lagtok pa rin

   I just love to travel!  The excitement of going to a new place, seeing really beautiful scenery and meeting people from all walks of life while expecting the unexpected… Experiencing different cultures and tasting distinct specialties of each town or city… Exploring hidden treasures of mother nature…  That, my friend, is traveling. 

Tomorrow, I’ll be off to Davao and gonna stay there for a week.  Although I have a pretty good idea of what I’ll be doing there, I can’t help but feel excited, anxious and somehow afraid of what will actually happen there.  Yet I am happy to once again explore many possibilities and learn from experience…  Knowing that traveling is a fun way to discover new things and enrich one’s knowledge.

   I must admit… I considered joining the Amazing Race but then, with the clock ticking and other teams catching up with me every minute, I won’t be able to savour every single moment of my journey and appreciate the many sights to behold.  Plus, I don’t think I’ll win the Million dollar price!  So, I ruled out the idea!

    As it is, I’m having a race of my own to visit new places and I probably won’t get enough of traveling even if I reach the age of 60! (that is if i live to reach that age! teehee).  But one thing is for sure, my race is simply AMAZING.

                                                                                                 Yearning to go around the world,
                                                                                                                                       lagtok

       In all these years, I have long realized that indeed "Change is the only permanent thing in this world". A long time friend may be a lot different from what he or she was before, while your hometown may not look the same after ten years.  Even our size and weight change.  Remember how from size Small your shirts became size L? Well, that my friend is a perfect example of change.

     ‘Guess, I just have to accept this one BIG change in my life today and ‘though it will take some time adjusting to, I’m 100% sure it will all turn out fine! (but who knows…this prediction might change by tomorrow. hehehe) 

moi pa rin

    Trusting is difficult once you’ve been let down or betrayed before…  But how can you teach a heart not to do so when it flutters and do somersaults for someone special?  Yet you’ll never know if you made the right choice ’til that person has proven you right or wrong.

  Well, yesterday, i did a leap of faith by trusting another guy again inspite of the paranoia settling in.  It’s not that i trusted him with my heart (well not yet anyway!) but it’s something BIG.  Honestly, i was gripped by fear and up until now, i am not sure if it was the right thing to do.  But then again, in the guise of friendship, i couldn’t have turned my back on him. 

    I just keep on wishing and hoping that  i am now a better judge of character than before and that by trusting again, i had overcome one obstacle towards true healing after a hard fall!

    Ah, perhaps, this heart could never be tamed.  That’s why it keeps on taking the risk even if there’s so much to lose…

                                                                                                                                    Crazy me